I just joined the bandwagon and a part of me feels a little stupid for succumbing. While a part of me needs to maintain and add connections, another part of me just wants to enjoy the little circle I have right now, and spend less time on the computer.

I tried adding some people as friends already and now I feel really sleepy and lazy so I'll probably continue it another time.

I don't know what's happening to me, but lately, I've been isolating myself - I haven't been going out, I haven't been getting in touch with others. I know that there's a lot of great people out there and yeah I do wanna meet some more kindred souls, but here I go again feeling like I don't need that much people in my life. Just me, that special someone, family and the little circle of true friends that I have, and everything is all right.

I guess I'm just getting a little traumatized with and a bit scared of all the bad people out there. I guess I'm just tired of all the users and the phonies and the negativos.

There was once a time when I considered blog-hopping sort of unhealthy, especially when I came across blogs of people with super interesting lives, making me Kermit-green with envy.

Now I'm starting to think that joining network sites is not for me. Some stuff - secret stalking, censorship, number power - are starting to make me a bit confused. My gawd, I must be sounding like some wacko prude whatever.

I don't know. It's past 3AM and I am not entirely sure I am making sense. So I'll just sleep and as usual, hope that when I wake up things will be better.